red hair effing rocks!!

i love it. i love love love it. i've had it red and blonde highlighted, but i went all red (with plum underneath) a few months ago. god i love it, and in the sun it's just like a beacon shining. it makes me feel so hot and pretty and wild. i love it, and i got a fabulous cut this time too. my hair has been fairly short for the last three years, i've been growing it out for a year, and it's now down to almost my bra strap with lovely layers and it's beautiful!!!! god, i sound like such a girl but i love it. so, i am on a mission to make myself feel better, which for me has a lot to do with me looking better. first i got my nails done for the first time in five weeks (that sickness really fucked my life up man.) then the hair for the first time in three months. i've stopped drinking beer, and haven't really been drinking much of anything lately, which is helping with the mood and the weight. now, i'll be trying to get my fat ass smaller and perkier, which obviously will not give me the instant gratification my hair does, but i know it will happen eventually. and then the big one: figuring out how the hell to quit smoking without gaining weight or killing someone or both. that is going to be the hardest one cause i'm one serious smoker. i don't smoke a lot, not like a pack a day or anything, but definitely everyday and definitely regularly and definitely addicted. and i know that i go psycho when i try to quit smoking cold turkey, and i also know that the patch makes me sick and the pills make me shake and give me insomnia. so, what else is there? hypnosis? that smoke away crap? trying to slowly cut down? i have no idea. i just have no idea, i really don't. all i know is that i don't like it like i used to, and i know that it makes me smell and feel tired and it's just not good for me. duh. so, those are my really late new years resolutions, if you will, and i'm hoping that in six months or so i'll be a better me.