i think i finally recovered from the superbowl

jay-sus, i got drunk. i have not been that twisted in years. years and years. it was fun though, mostly. i realized that i am at a serious disadvantage just to have a conversation with a guy though, seeing as how i'm not 22 and thin as a stick. it really pisses me off. it doesn't even matter what the face looks like, just so long as she's skinny and young. yeah, i need to lose some weight, but i'm not fat. and yeah, i'm not 22, but i got skills and i don't come with the 20's drama. but, i guess that although all men say they want no drama, they still go for the 20's girls cause they're skinnier and younger. whatever. like i said, i'm off men for now. i need to release this bitterness and anger somehow and i think the only way to let go of it is to stay away from men entirely. the boys i work with are ok, although they too bug the hell out of me sometimes in their testosterone poisoned kitchen, they're like brothers to me so it doesn't bother me that much. anyway, i'm battling a mix of no energy, grouchiness, and depression, which is not a good cocktail for me at all. i've just been so effing tired lately that it's impossible for me to get enough sleep and have time to workout, clean the house, do laundry, hang out with the boy, work, and relax a little. there's just not enough time at all.