what to say...sometimes a title just doesn't come

I am so frustrated right now. I decide that I am going to rededicate my life to my son and focus on him. I am happy and content in my life, by myself, just me and the boy. I am actually happy and laughing and feeling good and smiling on my way to work. Then I get an email, and another email, and another email, and they are so good. Then I decide I'm going to jump for it and ask the author of the emails to a wedding. So what if we haven't met before, I've got a good feeling about this guy. We go to the wedding, and we have a FABULOUS time. Truly wonderful and fun and romantic and just good. And then we set up another date, at the only time we can see eachother. That was also fun and romantic and oh so hot. Did I say hot? hot hot hot. I'm so excited and thinking that there is an actual MAN that is quite possibly in my life. It turns out, he is a man. He is a man who has children, and is going through a divorce, and who loves deeply and committedly and has had his heart broken. He is careful with his feelings and is understandably gun shy after the year he has had. He is worried that we won't be able to spend enough time together. He doesn't want to develop more feelings for me knowing that we could quite possibly only see eachother once a week. He doesn't realize that the reason we can't see eachother much is because we're both single parents, not because we work opposite shifts. I am the first person he's dated since becoming a single parent, and he just doesn't know what it's like to try to juggle work and kids and dating. So, it is over. For now. I told him that I knew our schedules weren't optimal, but that I hadn't met someone in three years that I even wanted to try working into my schedule, so I thought it would be worth it to try. He did not agree, because he just doesn't know. He doesn't know that in this area, quality people are very hard to come by. Quality people that you are intellectually and physically stimulated are even harder to come by. He also doesn't understand that between two different visitation schedules, until you've met the others children, you just can't see eachother that much. But, I respect the fact that he just doesn't know, and invited him to get back to me when he's seen what's out there and tried dating others who might have a better schedule than me. He'll see. I know I'll hear from him again, but it sucks that as of right now, I have not only unknowingly added another one night stand notch to my bedpost, but been dumped for my work schedule. Not because I'm a single parent, not because I'm chubby as hell, not because I'm older, but because of my chosen profession. It's like they are inventing things to dump me for, I swear. But I am determined to not be bitter, to not obsess, to keep living my life as I have been, and to keep a little hope alive that I will hear from this wonderful man again when he's had a chance to get a little farther out of his marriage and sampled the merchandise out there. Of course, finding it sorely lacking, he will come running back to me and we'll live happily ever after. Come on, I have to feed myself a little fairy tale every once in a while just to keep going through this.